Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Early morn send msg n ask u wan to go ofc early tgt, waited so long n u din even bother to reply. Pls la.. Know how to say others abt character n attitude but u dunno how to say urself.. Everyone hv to give in to u, not bcos scare of u, is bcos dun wan to argue or etc. Hw old r u alrdy? Say others dunno hw to behave, nt mature n etc but u urself oso e same. Next time before sayin others, say urself first. Say others rude.. U oso rude.. In e end, I still hv to smile n talk to you first.
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Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Is it I must be e one who always help n do things for others regardless family, relatives, siblings n friends? Is it is a must for me to do?? Is it that if I din, all of them will ignore me forever!? Family, relatives, siblings, friends, colleagues are all e same. I have to make the 1st move!!! Why always me!!! If I din or dun. I cfm that no one bothers n cares!!!!
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Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Did say have Mac nuggets tgt for dinner today. End up I go hme. Bcos I'm not like u, nothing to do at hme. I hv to help out to do things at hme. Say tmr order Mac for lunch but u give attitude. Watever la.. Everytime my faults.. Forget it..
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Tuesday, December 06, 2011
Another few hours, have to wake up early and prepare to go airport. A trip to HK with my parents, cousins n relatives.. 1st time going overseas.. Should be happy n excited but honestly I'm not. Maybe because of something is missing.. E promise that had before... ;(
Facing lots of pro which no one understand n will say I'm stupid, brainless n etc. Others will say me rude, bad attitude n etc. Others only wan me to listen to them but who will listen to me?? Others oso rude, have bad attitude n etc but do they know themselves?? They dunno. All they know is blame on me.. Why my life is so damn fucked up!! Why!!! Now wat I need is $$$$. I really need lots n lots of $$$$..
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Monday, December 05, 2011
Dun feel like working anymore. Last fri n today keep quiet while doin my work, they ppls inside ofc say I very rude, din ans them. Say I proud. I did ans them in a soft tone but they reply unwilling. They did reply rudely but I din say anything n yet they say I very rude n proud wen they ask me things. Even today oso e same. Ans n reply them nicely, they ans rude n unwilling. In e end, say my fault. Hw to communicate w these ppls??? Keep quiet oso wrong... Talk oso wrong.. Ur boss give u e reply that u dun like, is ur pro. I ask u thing nicely in a soft tone, cnt u ans properly!? Why u ans so rude n still say others ans rudely n unwilling. u urself hv e attitude n thk everyones scare of u wen u shout, raise ur voice loud n etc.. Is not scare, is just tat dun wan to argue w u so give in to u.. Keep sayin others hv attitude but did u ask urself??? U too hv a very bad attitude... U urself oso very rude..
Otw to work early. Sense something is not rite. Mb e mood still e same as last week. Keep quiet mean I'm proud, rude n etc. But when they keep quiet, mean they tired, slpy, dun feel like talkin, busy n etc. Honestly, none of them hv mature thinking at all. Not even me. I admit. Just bcos dun feel like talkin, means rude.. Pls?? Is not rude. At least I did ans in a soft tone. Is not like u all ans unwilling or din bother to ans. Just tat dun hv e mood to talk only.. Tats all. Why u all say till so nasty things out?? U all can talk among urself in other language which others dun understand wen u al dun wan to talk in English. But for me, I hv to communicate in english w u all as I'm e only Chinese. I always give in to u all even though I see u all nt in a gd mood. But y this time u all cnt give in to me???
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Sunday, December 04, 2011
明天真的很不想去做工.因为心里很清楚他们会一直说我的坏话和等等.真的很不想跟他们说话或先开口...
Feeling quite unwell yesterday when reach office. So keep quiet n do my work fast rather den keep talking because wan to go home n rest. Instead of keeping quiet n do my work, ppls say I show attitude n very proud when I dun ans them. Just dun feel like talkin n not feeling quite well, is it wrong? Why u all can feel unwell, show attitude, be so proud n etc whenever I try to talk to u all but why I cnt. When u all show angry, pissed off n etc, talk to u all always ans unwilling, unhappy n etc, i still talk n ask u all even though u all ans unwilling n etc.. U all keep talking n saying things behind my back even though I'm there. Just because u all talk, say n speak in Malay den think ppls dun understand. But dun u thk u guys oso have faults too? Everytime I have to give in to u all, talk to u all first n etc. I feel like I'm e clown.. Like an idiot... Wen u all in bad mood, u all can show ur attitudes to me but I can't say anything n just only keep quiet... Thanks for all treating me like an idiot..
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Thursday, December 01, 2011
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
It had been some time. busy with work and stuff... At last its almost the end of the year now.
Found a job with nice salary to be contented with and stick to my own timing with no one to bother.
today was just anotherday. Picked baby up from work place and back to my home. had some misunderstandings in between and after the discussion. next back to her home.
Reached and had nice dinner with her and her mum sitting there chatting as she had finished eating thou. A new cute dog arrive at her place today. haha.. nice yet weird name. "kap"... haha... got bitten by her as she is afraid and scared due to new place. aft the bite we chatted and baby starts to take candid shots again. arrg.. caught in actions for setting up and print her IC.. was kind of fun till i rem some stuff when i when up her place. so we talked it out and things were smooth. aft everything, laughters and smiles, i went home direct and next msg her.
Was worried as she will always wait for me to reach home and reply my msg till i am done then she will slp. but for today, no replies at all.. worried for her till now yet i cant get to slp so came in to do some postings.
X'mas round the corner. but yet, haix.. plans made with no presents. Baby stop me from buying cause i need to save up and pay for all my debts. Might be jus a belated aft everything some where next year ba.
i love you endlessly.
9:08 AM
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Its just another day again.. haven been updating.. kind of tiring and wonderfull week too.. today is just another of misses.. had been staying home to slp the whole day aft sending babyh back to work.. was super tired thou.. yet aft that till now haven been seeing baby.. misses in me sounds so deep yet can't be explained.. doesn't know weather baby felt the same too or not.. haix...
Was planning oto cut hair.. but in the end.. baby doesn't wanna go cut le just cause she said.. it seems like gonna rain and she lazy to leave home.. haha.. told her aft I'm done with my stuff I'll meet her for dinner she told me she going uncle home for bbq dinner.. so hope she enjoy it thou.. hmm... wish could fetch baby by than thou...
Lying on my bed.. hugging onto chip and dale... so lazy to wake up.. hw I wish I'm hugging baby instead thou. Haha.. hao la.. update till here.. baby.. missing u lots...
Last but nt least.. baby.. its a promise that I will nv frighten u with my driving and also nv to make u worry no more.. sorry baby and for this I'll mark my words for it.. love u...
i love you endlessly.
8:36 PM
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Was all alone at home for the whole day.. No place to go.. Sian...
But wonderfully my baby ain't bored, she finally met up with her ex for meal than out for shopping.. So fun..
Just now I went out to fetch ah chuan to camp.. Than next back home.. Just exited from changi back to jurong in high way I felt so uneasy.. My head keeps spinning and keep feel like vomiting.. I don't know what's wrong with me... MSG and told baby bout it. She felt worried.. I felt the concern in her.. How i reAy wish she's by my side.. But too bad she isn't..
Herd from baby places she went out with and done with her ex.. Frank to say sound jealous yet happy for her at least she smile.. I might consider selling my car soon.. Just for what baby said... Anyway will consider on weather to sell or not.
Just sent baby to work. Now I'm all alone in my company. Baby, no matter what it is, smile and rem to take care and bear this in mind, I'll always be there for u... Muacks....
i love you endlessly.
8:14 AM
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Went for another round of outing again today.. But this time ain't that good.. Had uncle sam ard and also a crazy little gal.. Thou they made her smile, I just felt disappointed that I unable to see her smile like before..
Earli morning went to visit her husband, next to work and aft that me.. Saw her angry and piss off face with A sick feels in it.. Felt worried for her yet my words can't console or help her out.. Went to east coast, ate chicken wings and also satay.. Now we are at marina barrage.. She seems to be getting more and more pale yet she is just trying to struggle.. Why can't she just rest at home??? Thou I know she does not like staying at home.. But isn't it this way to be where sick should stay home rest?? But in the end?? Double standard.. So worried she might just faint like that.. Guess have to be close to her.. Now currently away a little cause of updating.. Will be by her side again once done..
Today's me......: cried out without her knowing... Was just beside her when she sat in the beach.. Saw her emotional and sad face.. Can't controlled but cried out without her knowing... How I wish I can just hug her.. But becausenof their presence.. I stop myself... Baby... Pls take care.. Really don't wish to see h like this all this while.. I miss your smiles...
i love you endlessly.
10:30 AM
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Suddenly came back to blog again.. Saw what I post previously bou her.. It's all over... Don't really know wheather is It good or bad.. But just hope she is fine anyway..
Aft so long, yup. I had let go as advice by a woderful advisor.. But aft I let go I understand her better and knows that she is the is the one who also can't let go yet keep consolling me and also making mr understand the facts if love.. Yup, my advisor is good at advicing but not to do it on her own.. That us human...
Had been closed to my wonderful advisor and in the end fell for her.. Haha.. Those who knows me or read my post will be thinking who is the next advisor which I fell for.. Wonderfully is a secret person.. No one will ever knows who is it cause I really can't expose cause of her status and some personnel issue..
Drink drank drunkzzzz.. And all that stuff happened.. Thou I felt bad but I got no regrets.. I begin to miss this feel and her presence every now and than and in the end... Congrats.. We got together.. Felt so nice to be with her and hearing her words of console And also her wonderful presence.. Felt so warmth and nice.. Sweet heart.. I fell so deep just for u...
Thou I know I should not cause of your status, but j don't mind being there just for u whenever u needed someone to be there for u thou.. I wil cherish my every moment with u till the day u rely gonna leave me just for him.. I'll be there waiting for your return..
Today we went out for some spritual stuff. I felt so touched cause I knew what she prayed for roughly.. And I did the same too.. I prayed hard for her safety and health.. Baby, gonna take care k? No matter what ever the future will to be, i'll sti be there just for y whenever h needed someone to be there.. I missing u lots too...:p
i love you endlessly.
10:02 AM
1st dec liao.. Time pass so fast.. Another 23 days is Christmas eve Another 24 days is Christmas day Another 30 days is the brand new year of 2012.
Another a month plus will be Chinese new year.
Another 2month will be V.day.
All these festivals are approaching nearer n nearer.
But it seems lonely n quiet to me.
一个人好寂寞... Haiz...
Is it talk or say things nicely wrong? Why others always reply like unwilling, unhappy? 为什么好好跟你们讲或说话时,每次都回答到不甘言。帮你们做东西,拿东西或等等最后没人凌情.为什么每次对人好到最后都是这样??
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